Take it easy

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 04:08:02 GMT

Oh college, you do such a great job of kicking my ass.

Or is that me? Probably.

So between classes, my inexplicably horrible relationship with time, and several personal projects, I'm starting to get stressed. Or just sad. But, screw that.

Aaaa I haven't had to try hard to make friends since my Junior year of high school (with exceptions in my Senior year, but whatever, we were all pretty damn close-knit). My first-impressions go one of two ways:

A) I don't particularly care about who I'm talking to:
Result: People suddenly decide I'm amazing and want to be my friend, sometimes even following me, women will flirt with me, cats will gather at my door, etc. (This probably doesn't happen that much, but it's happened enough times to make note.)

B) I want to make a good impression with who I'm talking to:
Result: I look like a STALKER.

Project-wise, I've been trying to do writing in general, maybe for a novel, why not(which isn't moving along at all), compose music, and write for a webseries. It's all fun but, ugh, I need work ethic.

But, I've been warding off any stress with The Time Warp. That's right, you heard me (and hopefully by Friday, I'll have finally seen The Rocky Horror Picture Show, therefore no longer being a poseur).

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 04:27:25 GMT

College has actually been awesome so far, go figure (save for all those money issues).

I'm a bit confused as to why Japanese is my easiest class, but whatever.

Found the translation to that one popular "Danjo" song, and am convinced it is the best idea for a song ever. Yeah, I came in late on that.

There sure are a lot of pretty gals on campus. I'm afraid one isn't going to be enough.

Ha.

Did pass by a statue of two American-Indians firing arrows into the sky (every time I see it, I want to look up and see the arrows falling back down. It's a trick!). Did see an art class surrounding it. Did notice the 30+ roster of the class was 99% female. Did question why I decided to become a writer.

Yes, haven't been updating much, again. This always happens when I get a life, eh.

Have been practicing harmonica for a musical project. If you know me in real life (yes, you), keep it on the down low. There's a lot of Zelda tunes that have harp tabs online, but hell if I can play that fast and peppy yet.

There are not enough medleys in the world.

Too many people telling me to live on campus. So far, my sister's been miserable with her dorm life, and living off campus has saved me a lot of money, a lot of hassle, and it got me a free slice of pizza!

Not a lot else been goin' on. If anyone wants to let me know if I've missed anything in their life, feel free.

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 10:44:26 GMT

So, two close(ish, it feels like sometimes) friends of mine got married the other day.

A girl I was romantically involved with a year or so ago is engaged to be married to her childhood friend.

And a girl I knew at one point in high school has decided that she is going to marry her current, and first, boyfriend.

Hm.

WHAT DAY IS IT

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 07:36:34 GMT

I think Aaron's Xbox 360 has stolen my life.

Did I just spend the last three to four days (keeping in mind that in "Parker-Time," a day is 12-18 hours long, starting in the afternoon) playing Mass Effect?

I DON'T NORMALLY PLAY SHOOTERS WHY WAS I SO ADDICTED.

And now Lost Oddysey is there!

I'M NEVER GONNA GET ANY PROJECTS DONE BEFORE COLLEGE STARTS UP AGAIN AAAAAA

Edit: Also, finally saw The Dark Knight. I'd be lying if I said I didn't watch the movie just for Heath's Joker.

Christian Bale, you still manage to be Christian Bale in every role you ever play. :|

Anything I post about is 90% probably something that happened two to three days ago.

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 00:49:03 GMT

Oh hey! Finally got that SA account, go figure. Basing off of an inside joke between friends, I've adopted the alias of SenselesslyDeep.

In other news, I'm a bit down lately, but eh. I can't help but feel I can't do shit right, including the things I'm supposed to be good at, and that nobody thinks I can handle myself. I probably sound paranoid, but then again, my sister did tell me that nearly everyone I know has advised her not to end up like me. That's a pretty good shank in the face.

A post wouldn't be complete without me mentioning wasting time on video games, though, amirite? A friend bought Etrian Odyssey II for me out of the goodness of his heart(?). I've been waiting to play it, and now that I'm up to the 2nd Stratum, I can say that is definitely everything I had hoped for, including all of it's ball-busting difficulty (no, I don't know why I hoped to get my balls busted, either). It's like:

Parka: "Alright, this place is pretty dangerous, but as long as I avoid the F.O.E.s, I should be okay. I can handle the random encounters."
One battle later...
Parka: "SON OF A BITCH ONLY 1/5 OF MY PARTY IS STILL ALIVE"

Yeah. There is never a time to let down your guard in this game. I haven't played it for a week or so, though. After reaching the 2nd Stratum, I was overcome with a craving for Castlevania (which is funny, considering I'd never really played any of those games beforehand). So I played through Aria of Sorrow (got the bad ending, but I could go back and get the good and great ones soon), and have been fooling around in Symphony of the Night. The storyline is ASSSSS but the mythos and gameplay is absolutely amazing.

So, yeah, I need to get back to having a life. E-Eventually.

I wish I had more of a life at the moment to post about.

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 23:19:48 GMT

Finished Live-A-Live, which is definitely now right up there in my favorite RPGs along with Radiata Stories and Dragon Quest V (yes this means I must be a serious WEIRDO with my love of older games and all. I obviously need to go play more Haloz). I need to remember to do an LP of it eventually, because one, LPs are fun as hell and I want in on that, and two, the RPGs I tend to favorite go generally overlooked and need more love.

Of course, to LP well, I'd first need a SomethingAwful account. I need ten dollars.

I have ten dollars!

I need to know how to send them over the internet.

Alas. I am an idiot.

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 07:42:07 GMT

I totally did an interpretive ~~COUGHhaphazardCOUGH~~ dance with a friend to "Knights of Cydonia" by Muse.

People were hella confused.

WHAT.

Tue, 27 May 2008 18:22:46 GMT

My f-list is listing posts from May 27th, May 26th, May 27th, and May 26th.

WHAT.

I AM CONFUSED.

FUCK YES YOU ARE THE BEST REPOST EVER

Fri, 23 May 2008 05:08:15 GMT

OH SHIT NOW WITH NEW ART

I ALREADY WANT TO PLAY FFIV DS BADLY AS IT IS

WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHH

Also: I got a haircut. I want my hair back. And Secret of Mana's sequel is lame. Screw that, Kirby Superstar time.

WOAH SHORT GAME

Thu, 22 May 2008 10:24:49 GMT

I just finished playing through Secret of Mana with a friend on two player.

Over the internet.

WOAHHHH. The lag was ridiculous at points, but it was a great three or four days. Also, that game is pretty damn difficult, until later on when you get good. Also the story was pretty much bread-and-butter (except for one part hoooooly shit), smothered in WTF. SMOTHERED.

Though this was great:
*Parker and Patrick, having just earned access to the entire world via Flammie the dragon, try to figure out where the hell they are. They mistakenly land in front of the village the main character was exiled from in the beginning.*
Guard: *is being an NPC*
Patrick: "Fuck your shit, we have a dragon."
*Parker and Patrick take off on Flammie.*

IT WAS LIKE A VERBAL DRIVE-BY SORTA KINDA INADVERDANTLY

We're gonna take on the sequel tomorrow, assuming I wake up in the daytime.

Jeez, I am a nerd.

Thu, 01 May 2008 05:51:16 GMT

It...it is so beautifully done... ;___;

Dammit, now I just want to play FF4 for the DS that much more.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 19:39:08 GMT

So a friend I know is generally an ass, let's call him Patrick. Naturally, after a while I lose interest, and stop being like "LOL I WANNA HANG OUT WITH THAT GUY," despite having known him for about three years. I'm not throwing him off the face of the planet, I'm just...disinterested. It makes sense to me, but another friend of mine, let's call him Aaron, seems pretty butthurt over this, and is telling me to be the better man and take it and hang out with him.

...wat.

[IM conversation]
Parker: So he can be an ass, but I can't?
Aaron: He is an ass.
Parker: And you can be an ass, but I can't?
Aaron: I am an ass. You aren't.
Parker: O rly?
*Parker signs off*

HURR I'M SO KEWL. But no, he was just prattling on with bias, and I wasn't getting anything out of the conversation, so I know where to walk out. I'm not IGNORING Patrick, I just don't really CARE. He's like extended family to me, so I care ABOUT him, but he's like the sibling you don't really wanna hang out with because they're rude to you and punch you all the time.

Getting that off my mind, I really need to get better at writing. Jeez, some random guy in my English class showed me his introduction to a synthesis paper on James Joyce, and it was ten times better than anything I've ever written. I've got a lot of work to do. ...Oh hell, this is a thoughtdump, let's be sincere:

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK.

Alright, that's better.

I'm finding myself losing a lot of time while listening to music, as I listen to ENTIRE ALBUMS AT A TIME. Listening to Coheed and Cambria, I can barely remember which songs are what. It's like one massive song.

Thinking about it, I don't consider myself an artist. An artist would be someone who concentrates on their art as more than just a hobby, I'd think. A profession, yeah. But I just doodle without trying to get amazing. I just scribble little things to give me ideas on what my characters in my writings might look like (I still don't know why all my thoughts are "animated," but it works for me, since I can't draw realistically with my current skill). Which reminds me, I'll have to post some doodles here.

Kid Icarus is a very hard game. SO. FUCKING. HARD. I think I'll never be able to look at an eggplant without screaming. I think I got as far as 2-4 before stopping for a while. That was definitely 500 Wii Points well spent.

Well, someone's at the door, so that's enough of thinking.

Well, that's a relief.

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 10:11:25 GMT

I discovered her secret terrible flaw.

She thinks Will Ferrell's "hilarious."

I think I can live with that. Now I don't feel intimidated at all.

Alright, get along.

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:44:27 GMT

This LJ now serves the purpose of a thoughtdump. To hell with organization (though don't expect Ulysses).

That Megaman userpic is the closest I look to any video game character, so, uh, yay. Yay for bizarre anonymity that I have no actual problems with breaking. I also am using it to celebrate my finally playing and beating Megaman 2. It was really fun (OKKUSENMAN, OKKUSENMAN).

So after being inexplicably downtrodden trying to communicate with some who may or may not have a vagina (you would be surprised how easy it is to strike a chord in someone by just not responding for several hours...or AT ALL), I was losing motive to get shit done.

Which reminds me, I need to get those annotations that were due last Monday DONE.

Which also reminds me, I write essays on accident. I am risking failing classes due to this. I don't know what the fuck. My head's not screwed on right, er sumthin'.

Back to the whining really quickly. Somehow, listening to Ok Go got me out of my funk. I have no idea how that worked out, but props to those pseudo(?)-homosexuals, in any case.

You don't love me at all/but don't think that it bothers me at all/You're so damn hot

The reason this is supposed to be more comical than "NOBODY UNDERSTAND ME /WRISTS" is that, after dumping (at least in her words) my ex-girlyfriend, I became more independent. My friends fell in and out of relationships, and were stressed and frantically ran around like chickens with their heads cut off to find someone new (yeah, this analogy is backfiring on me as I type), while I sat back and enjoyed being single and confident.

After the break up with my ex, I was able to define what I liked in females. 99% of the females I knew did not fit this. Was I picky? Hell yes. Was I satisfied? Hell yes. For once I wasn't an awkward mess. I was on my way to becoming the person I aimed to be.

Some months later, here comes Kendal. Dammit.

She is. She just "is." I had to write a song about her ism, though I'm not posting it right now because I'm not happy with it (though, hurr, that's the point of this LJ).

Somehow, as though in a SIGN FROM GOD HIMSELF, not only did she fit every requirement, she soared miles over them. She has an appreciation for the craft of writing, and all other fields that involve that creativity. She sings (and has won all-state competitions). She dances (countless different kinds of dances I couldn't possibly remember). She doesn't type like a damn ten-year-old, so conversation isn't a chore. She actually makes for good conversation (most girls I know don't, ugh), and was more than willing to stay up until 6 AM talking to me for most of Spring Break. She's got charm enough to win over the devil, and she's beautiful. ~~The fact that she appears to have no flaws actually scares me a bit. She'll probably turn out to have a fetish for clown-makeup.~~

I don't think I've ever been this motivated. And yet, I've hit my man-period, and am therefore horny and sad (because that's all PMS really is HURR HURR oh jeez please don't throw bricks at me flist i was kidding). I can't let this get me down. Grin, bear it, and shoot for the stars.

She just recently broke up with her boyfriend (bah, he was an ass), so here's hoping it's meant to happen. Only the cosmos itself can prevent me from sticking to my record of failures. Also, sorry about talking about her endlessly, but it got it off my mind.

A bunch of optimistic stuff just came back in my head because of Okkusenman, but I really should end the rambling and finish my annotations. It's 6:40 AM. Dammit, me.

EDIT: I actually digressed enough to miss my point. I went from being confident back to an awkward little schoolboy on the inside because of one girl. That is ghey.

If you read all that, I have no idea how bored you must be.

The image of the little exploding man will tip you off to not read this boring post. It makes sense.

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 11:57:20 GMT

Five days until I am officially OLD-YEARS-OLD.

My writing is never good enough, so I'll be satisfied enough to write a novel once I die of old age (God willing). This is good, because aside from Rowling, King, and Grisham, that's the age when writers become popular.

These userpics are retarded and reflect the retarded me from two years ago.

I hate college, and I'm only a year into it. Is it hard, is it time consuming, is it depressing? Yes, all of the above! But, only because I am an idiot. Also an insomniac.

Also, also, I'm an insomniac. It gets lonely. You can feel the change of your breath go from "okay, but could be better" to "OH FUCK." If this keeps up, I will need:

1) A wife who looks really adorable while asleep.
2) A lot of damn mouthwash.
or
3) The ability to become a MOTHERFUCKING OWLMAN.

I also need to think of better excuses to swear. There's a level where it's classy, and I'm at the one where I look like a, eleven-year-old. I went from being a prude to vocabulary to a sailor.

My ex has no standards in men. We went together like peanut butter and CALTROPS, so I guess it's good I got out of that.

Speaking of that, women are difficult. Shut up, you know you are. I don't care that my entire flist is female, most of LJ is. Men can be difficult too. There, gender-equality. Fuck.

I'm usually a happier guy. I'm just letting off steam and having fun. I also am not sexist, so TEE HEE JOKE IS ON YOU I TOTALLY TRICKED YOU.

Oh yeah, I forgot why I said they were difficult. Women are difficult because DAMN IT KENDAL IT'S THE FUCKAN WEEKEND, I DON'T CARE IF IT IS CRUNCH TIME, I WANT A FUNTELLIGENT CONVERSATION WITH AN ATTRACTIVE WOMAN. SHIFT-KEY.

6:40 AM. I am an insomniac. Maybe. May have to ask a doctor. I can't get assignments done because I have something that is probably the mutant lovechild of ADD, OCD, and Claustrophobia (it's always the pretty ones that have to be stupid, isn't it?).

My friends are all smarter and more 'all-together' than me. It is disheartening.

Aging is annoying at my point in life because OH LOOK I APPEAR TO BE VERY CONFIDENT (though most of the time I am) AND AM IN COLLEGE AND BLAH BLAH I AM A STUD I GUESS BUT ALL THE GIRLS THAT ARE SUDDENLY SWOONING FOR ME ARE WHAT WE LIKE TO CALL IN THE SCIENTIFIC FIELD "JAILBAIT." Damn pedophilia. I know married couples that are twenty-five years apart in age, and a girl three years younger than me will get me handcuffs.

Not even the good kind of handcuffs, mind you.

Despite all this BAAAAAAWWWWW, I still follow the philosophy that "everything happens for a reason," and "anything is possible, as long as you have the will."

~~And THAT is why I'll succeed in the end.~~

Fuck it, that's just cheesy.

And yes, I probably will disappear for another seven months out of lack of interest.

Way to go.

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 06:26:29 GMT

Why am I on here!? I need to be doing homework!

Curse you Interne--

Oh look, another website. I am distracted again.

Omg busy

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 06:07:32 GMT

College college college college.

Tablet tablet tablet tablet.

Writing writing writing writing.

Date with a cute girl tomorrow. Bit nervous. I can handle it.

...

Hm. Hope she shows up.

Bit late getting to this

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 19:07:22 GMT

Finally started practicing with a tablet. C-cuz I kinda need to know how to draw on the compootur. :[ I'm picking it up pretty quickly, so yay. I just need to get an GOOD art program on here (has been practicing with MS Paint do to not being able to find his sister's art stuff).

So I saw Ratatouille and I loved it so hardcore omggg <333 I'm tempted to watch it a couple more times with friends.

ASDJAJSF

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 03:25:46 GMT

[Feel free to skip this bit of angst.]

WHAT TH--What do you mean my GPA is 2.1!? Bad words. So many bad words running through my head!

My high school may have been an awesome experience socially, but they were NUMBER ONE IN SCREWING YOU OVER.

My senior year's headmaster was out to get kids. No. Seriously. He actually only thought of himself. He threatened to not sign my diploma. He never did sign it, actually. But we managed to get around that, and I got a 23 on the ACT, which was good enough to get me where I wanted to go.

BUT NOW THIS!? TWO-POINT-ONE GPA!? *headdesk*

[You are now leaving Angst.]

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Thu, 12 Jul 2007 04:41:52 GMT

Friend's dad died yesterday in a car crash, and I got the news today. I didn't know what to say to my friend. I ended up avoiding talking to him in fear of not knowing what to say. Eventually I did send him a message with my condolences and an apology for not being able to say more. I still feel guilty about avoiding this though.

Erk.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 05:25:22 GMT

Crap. Must find something to post about. Have too much of a life at the same time as not. Whatever that meant.

Uhh. Saw Transformers. Pretty much loved it to death. So nice. Dialogue was awesome and hilarious, action was epic. Won't give spoilers because you punks need to go see it. Still want to see new Pixar movie that I sadly can't spell the name of!

Fable sucking my soul away. Gotta be careful with that game lol. Borrowed a friend's Xbox to play it since I'm so against buying myself one.

Three cute female friends of mine are FINALLY coming back from their trips (myessss). Sadly, my best buddy is leaving for three weeks in return. :[ TEXAS WHY YOU GOTTA BE EATING MY HOMIES SO MUCH.

Oh well. Three cuties!

HAY GUYZ I WUZ IN A COMA

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 01:26:21 GMT

...No. Lol. Not really.

So, I graduated High School. That was a crazy couple of years for sure. Unlike most people, I'm definitely blessed to have had an experience like that. Yes, I know, people go to high school. I mean a "good high school experience" lol. Ended up being pretty popular. Girls cried when I graduated mwahaha.

Now to attempt to successfully get into college.

SO. How you guys been holding down LJ while I was gone? It's...changed a lot. What's all been happening non-life-related?

Also, I'm pretty addicted to .hack games now. :[ The story's so good. I've had .hack//Infection Part 1 for PS2 for years now, but thought it was boring. After a party I held a few days back, I sat down to play it and played until I passed out at ten AM, hahaha.

I've forgotten a lot of LJ things, so I might need a bit help remembering. Or maybe I'll pick up on it all again.

Onoz

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 01:03:28 GMT

School is back in session. WHICH MEANS less LJing prolly. Also means no IMing my foreign buddies except for on weekends. :\ Lame.

It's not a mirage! T3T

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 16:21:35 GMT

While I usually don't like manga-based-off-games, this seems to be done quite nicely! :D

Hmm

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 20:14:52 GMT

I should get around to finishing that fanart meme art. :\ *shrug*

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PS In case some of you flist guys didn't see my gamepimp post, definitely check it out! It's the post prior to this one. :D